Monday 23 November 2015

Discharged from ed services

Hey guys,
I come bringing posite news.
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I have been discharged from ed services


After 6 long months of being with the ed team today I waved happily goodbye from them.

Thinking back now of how far in those 6 month of how far I have come I am astonished with the progress I have made. In late August I couldn't even think of them discharging me today but after them putting me in inpatient it finally douned on me I can't live my life like tjis as I'm going to spend the rest of my life in hospital. So I gained the weight I needed to and 2 Months today said the best goodbye of my life from inpatient



I couldn't of come to where I am today if it wasn't for all the amazing help I have had from camhs, connected, Skye house, friends and family. And a huge shootout to everyone who comments and cheers me on in the ed community as you have all helped so very much xxx
No one can expect I'm cured now from my ed as I'm not and I know it will take time but I now have the strength to fight and say no to the evil voice that rulled me for 9 months and took everything away from me. And I can say that will not happen again I am strong  and if i struggle again with ed thoughts I will reach for help asap so I don't get into that place ever again when all I could think of was food, calories, exercise, weight and throwing up.

My next step in this journey is to stay weight restored and start focusing on other things in my life like school, friendships and most importantly the rest of my mental health which I haven't talked much about on here but might in the future. And then after work on my other mental health issues get finally discharged from camhs.
Things are looking very very positive right now for me ed wise I just need to use that determination in other aspects of my life but also stay healthy and eat what ever the hell I want and not what anorexia wants.

Love Becca xx


Wednesday 11 November 2015

Things that help motivate me with recovery

Hey guys, Today I want to talk to you all about the things that help motivate me with my recovery everyday. The thing that mostly spurs me in is the beautiful ed community on instagram but also this book is a huge inspiration to me.


The simplest things as having beautiful quotes and having pictures that remind me of what I have ocumplished over the last 3 months in recovery. 





Also receiving this beautiful letter from one of my friends on instagram keeps me going everday. Just having something that someone else has wrote spurs me on as I think writing means so much more to me than words. 

What are some of the things you find helpful with spurring you on with recovery?

Love Becca xz 

Monday 2 November 2015

a walk that got me thinking...

 
Hey guys, on Sunday I went for a very beautiful walk with my dog (this is a photo my friend took later on in the day which I wanted to use), there was some beautiful flowers which had blossomed I started think I need to blossom I cant be like the falling leaves (yes they are pretty but in reality they are dead). I started thinking my eating disorder is what's making me become the falling leaves and that every time I beat
it I am flourishing like a beautiful flower. The falling leaves also symbolise all the things my eating disorder took away from me like sports, meals out, family, friends, my dog, school, happiness and at one point even my own bed.
 
At one point a few months ago I classified this thing as my best friend that took everything away from me and ended me up in hospital without my family and dog. I don't know how I ever classified that thing as my best friend no way it was going to be my best friend if it wasn't for hospital I would probably be dead by now. I am so glad I now see that blossoming like a flower is the way to go and gain back strength and my life back. To be able to get back all the things that have been taken away from me.  In fact I have already got all of them back bar sport but I am working on it.
 
I hope this post got you thinking and be sure to comment down bellow what got you on track to proper recover.

Love Becca xx